2022, here we come!

Welcome back! I hope you all have a lovely Christmas!

It's crazy to me that 2021 is over. Don't get me wrong, it's a welcome change of year. I know that the moment the clock hits midnight and it's officially 2022 where I am, nothing will change. Everything stays the same, but I think just starting a new year will be good.

So I wanted to reflect just a little bit on 2021. I won't go too into depth, but I just wanted to say a few things.

2021 was supposed to be a great year.

I remember this time last year, I was sitting in my living room with my boyfriend playing our favorite board game. We were both a bit drunk and doing our best to stay up until midnight so we could kiss in the new year.

The moment the clock hit midnight, I started crying. 2020 had been such a rough year for the world and also on a personal level, and I was ready for a new year. Little did I know...

For me, 2021 was a worse year than 2020. The year started with the cancellation of exciting plans on the 1st of January due to a medical issue with my boyfriend. It's not his fault, but we should have known based on that the year was going to be brutal.

The first bit of the year wasn't too terrible. Work was more stressful than usual, but I am fairly used to that.

But then my cat was diagnosed with renal failure in the spring. I had six weeks with him before it was time and we put him down. It ruined my year. I don't want to get into too much detail about it, but I can say that it was one of the worst things to happen to me. If you don't know me, you may not understand why it was so painful for me, but if you know me and know what he meant to me, then you might get it.

Binx dying turned the year into something I never thought it would. And from there, things just spiraled. 

My depression this year has been worse than ever before. Work has gotten even worse. Plans have been canceled.

The only thing that was good was getting the vaccine. 

I did learn a lot about myself over the course of 2021, but I learned it because of bad things that have happened.

I am ready for 2022. I don't have high hopes that it'll be better, but I am going into it hoping for the best. 

I know that may seem a bit pessimistic, but I have to be realistic. I was beaten down in 2021, and honestly, I am just grateful that I made it to 2022. I am doing the best I can, and that's all I can do. I'm surviving. I have a lot of good that happened in 2021, but it's weighed down by the bad. I have continued to move forward, and will continue to do so.

This post ended up being pretty sad, so my apologies about that. I am beyond ready for a new year. I am not going to make any new year resolutions because I don't believe in them, but I am going to keep trying. I'm going to keep working on bettering myself.

What are your goals or resolutions for 2022? How are you feeling about saying goodbye to 2021?

Okay, that's it for this one. I hope you all have a nice and SAFE new years! Let's welcome 2022 in!

Bye :)